i should just go and bang my pitiful self into a wall and die. might help to make this world a better place anyway. ARGH.

the stress of midyears is only coming to me now. but the more stressed out i feel, the more i cant get myself to concentrate on studying. WHAT IS THIS MY DEAR ME. WHY. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. OMOOMOOMO. WAE?!

the worst thing ever to happen is to become addicted to something now. whenever i feel stressed i turn to my darned addict. DARN ME.

i still cant find the motivation to study hard after ranting for so long. idk what is happening. seems like i lost my direction again. OH GOSH. i need to talk to someone. BUT WHO lol. hweeling is definitely out. liyana too, since she has her own stuff to worry about. OMO i'm damn pathetic. if you're reading this, you will be much better off ignoring me. KTB. (:

hearts SJ! (note to self: must numb my addiction for SJ for now. for the sake of my a lvls.)