or rather, THESE ARE KILLING ME.

freaking thoughts refuse to go away. and my rashes are getting worse. should have opted to go NUH instead of insisting on getting an appointment at NSC. damn. my skin is peeling like siao and the whole area of skin is so....FKING UGLY. i mean WTF CANT THE DAMNED SPECIALIST GIVE ME AN EARLIER DATE. i'm dying pretty soon cuz of the rashes. i cant even bear to look at them sometimes. maybe it was some kind of price i had to pay for something else that i did. maybe its some form of retribution. but this is going too far. i dont want to be disfigured okay. UGH I'M DAMN PEK CEK.