i got used to this a long long time ago. so...i guess it does not affect me much now. somehow i've learnt to control my emotions well i think. so now nobody will be able to know how i feel and my real feelings towards people. GREAT. (:

studied abit today. normal distribution is getting me nuts. but normal approx is still okay lol.

and today my aunt came to my house ahhahaha. she mentioned something about getting a flat in jurong west. then i can live there if i get into NTU in the future. i mean, WOW. can you imagine. MY OWN HOUSE. (okay i know its not under my name but HELLO I'M GOING TO LIVE ON MY OWN. W/O ANY PARENTAL SUPERVISION. COOOOOL OR WHAT.) and i had a nice discussion about it with terence weishun liyana and hweeling. liyana and hweeling had pretty much nothing to say about. terence wants to move in to stay with me wtf. weishun....his ideas are pretty much crazy as well lol. but my brother most probably will stay with me too so haha i shall think over who to rent my rooms to :D and i might employ liyana over to be my housemate! and she can have a discounted rental price since she shall be in charge of dinner every other day (: WAHAHAHAHA i've already got everything planned out LOL. but ohwell its just something random to brighten up my day. i've got enough sad things happening these days already. enough is enough. i really need to muster up the courage to let go of these sad things to push myself to study. if not i tend to waste time mulling over stupid things and then get nothing done.

alright i'm done ranting for today. BYE.