SERIOUSLY. I CAN'T STAY AT HOME AT NIGHT IF ITS GOING TO BE CHAOS CHAOS AND MORE CHAOS EVERY NIGHT. youngest brother throw temper, mum throw her tantrum. then all the nagging and the same old stuff about what my dad did to her blahblahblah comes out once again. I CAN FREAKING REPEAT WHAT SHE'LL SAY LAH. home is indeed NOT a conducive place for me to mug. maybe i should stay back after school to mug everyday till about 7pm then go home. at least i'll get something done instead of handling the chaos at home. i'm not the only one taking the a levels at home this year. my brother in njc is also taking it this year. he can mug at home cuz he's always in his own world when he's in his room. thats why sensible people like me dont ever step into his room when he's in there. i dont want to face his wrath. his fury can overpower that of a crazed woman, trust me. ;D

 but anyways. today was fun! i mean, before i got home. met up with HL today. damn COOOOOOOL~ its always nice talking to her because whatever you tell her, it doesn't get into other people's ears. as in, she's a very nice friend (: love her loadsssssssssss <3 we went to cwp. was stopped by some weird guy to get me to enrol in some drama programme. naturally, i rejected. CUZ I HAVE TO FINISH MY A LEVELS FIRST BEFORE I CONSIDER ANYTHING ELSE RIGHT? (: but i got a damn scare. he just came up to us damn abruptly while i was talking to HL. guess it was cuz i was talking damn drama-ly (i was trying to tell HL how i handle my homework and stuff you see) so it caught his attention. LOL.

okay i need suggestions on where to mug. i dont want to face my family while i need to seriously mug. they never ever think of me when they decide to flare up and kick up a fuss about things. i'm the one taking the a levels. not them. my brother can absolutely handle his own studies since he's like, smarter than me please. i'm talking about someone who scored a raw score of 8 points for his L1R5 during O's okay. its like, 10 points lower than me lah. F**K. wonder what did my mum do while my brother was still in her womb. actually, sometimes i think i'm an unwanted child. okay forget it. i dont want to elaborate. I MUST THINK OF MORE OPTIMISTIC STUFF. must not be pessimistic. or else liyana will also be pessimistic. which is BAD. cuz she's pessimistic enough. (: