to her, it was never about ME. NEVER. i'm so disappointed with my mum you know. cuz its like, whenever i see my friends' mum asking them about how their day was, i get all green with envy. my mum doesn't do that. and she never asks me about what i want. it was, and always has, been all her. HER, not ME. i mean, which 18-year old still uses a prepaid mobile line? i really want to scream in her face that I WANT TO GROW UP. i want my own mobile phone line. something that i can call my own. i SO DO NOT WANT my aunt's line. since I AM the one using it, why should it be under somebody else's name? why must it always be my aunt? WHY!? why is it that i can't make demands of my own FOR ONCE!? its not like i'm asking her to fork out any extra money for the mobile bill. i already told her she can deduct it from my pocket money. it sounds reasonable to me. what's more, the phone that i want is on OFFER now. which means its MUCH CHEAPER to buy it NOW. and she just refuse to negotiate further without even considering the BIG PICTURE. UGH.

and screw the math paper too. as what i told someone, since i just screwed up my favourite subject paper today, there seems to be nothing else that is worth screwing now.