my daily tarot for today (or rather, yesterday, 24/10 LOL):

The Tower card suggests that my alter ego today is the Survivor, whose superpower for revolution lies in my epiphany for change, brought on with the aid of a serious reality check. Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes -- another opens. So tear down the wall, and rebuild anew.

this explains what i'm going to comment on later on. haha.

so today i had to work. and tomorrow as well. haha. but well, today, i saw this damn cute guy. he looks like lee ji hoon! *screams* cutecuteCUTECUTE! and the cute guy alert alarm went off in my head. i wasn't assigned any table, cuz they had too many staff today. (again. - -") so i was told to do random stuff like collecting the BEO for tmr for the captain, do clearing, then counting the cutleries for tomorrow's event. LOL. so i was damn disappointed that i couldn't work with that cute guy. *laughs* damn silly lor. then i was happily counting the spoons needed for tmr then suddenly the door to the stewarding opened and the cute guy's head popped into the room! *screams* i was shocked. then we had eye contact. *SCREAM!!!!* then he asked for teaspoon. i found the whole box for him. then he told me to count 20 for him. then i was like, HUH? so he just grabbed the box from me and said, never mind i'll do it myself. LOL. i'm damn dumb. T.T but later the captain came in and asked my partner whether she wanted to go out and serve or not then she said no. so i was told to go out to replace some girl who couldn't communicate well with her partner. LOL. so i ended up running around serving some gala dinner. but the table i served was like, across from the cute guy's table. BOO. and then his partner keep on kajiao-ing me when i walk past him. GRRR. stupid GIANT. oh that's his nickname by the way. i mean, the cute guy's partner. haha. then it was time to sign out and go home! *CHEER* then i heard the cute guy asking around: who lives in ___. and i was like, shit its not near my place. i nearly wanted to slam my utterly pitiful self onto the wall cuz i felt stupid to entertain these kinds of thoughts. D: enough of this talk. i'm going to get into trouble someday. haha.

now i know how my dad gets high blood pressure. he simply loves to watch horror movies. *shivers* i'm watching one right now with him. some thing related to bats. *SCREAMS* scary. wonder how he manages to watch it throughout. D: i dont think i'll be getting any sleep tonight. GOSH.

going to sleep soon. going to work tomorrow too! NIGHTS!