its not advisable for humans to fret over too many things. it brings about the damned headaches and then you cant concentrate on completing any homework and all you feel like doing is to SLACK. D:

so...mom says there's a change in plans for tomorrow. no kids allowed, according to the priest. so now i'm worrying over my grandpa, who insists on being around. and my aunt, who is in quite a delicate condition, which is the same as mine. and its the 15th tmr. mom says we are to go down to bid our farewells tomorrow night. NIGHT. gosh. i know i sound superstitious but hey, i'm in a very delicate condition which i have no wish to be in OKAY. monday night was supposed to be a fragment of happy memory for me about *ahem*. i did NOT wish for anything bad to happen to anyone. its not like i did not have spooky experience which has left me shivering in fright. i know i dont display my feelings on my sleeve but that doesn't mean i dont feel anything. i'm trying my best to be the cheerful person in my house but there's a limit to it cuz i have other things to fret over. the only good thing that has happened so far is that my parents have started talking to each other cuz of my uncle's death. but, i know that this situation will not last long. after everything ends, everything would go back to how it was before. shit i'm rambling on and on. okay so i'm to go off home straight after school to pick up my youngest brother from his kindergarten lessons, then wait at home for my dad. that's the scary part. and only hweeling and i will know why. i dont dare to tell anyone else. thats all i'm going to say.

i just hope that everything will be fine. as long as everything will be fine, i'll be contented, and i'll ask for nothing more. perhaps dream about certain stuff, but nothing else matters other than my family's safety. (: